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I am a child of an alcoholic father and distrusting mother. This has led me to lead the majority of my life (up until recently) being socially detached and content living in my own little fantasy world, basically alone and fine with that for the most part. Eventually i followed some of my close friends from childhood drug use, so far just weed, occasional alcohol, and exstacy on occasion as well (5-6 times within a year). It got to a point where I was smoking pot almost daily until i realized that what i was doing wasn't what I wanted to do with my life. I have now focused more on limiting my addictions (many video games, habitual overeating, and marijuana) and trying to get in touch with the social setting I turned away from for a large part of my life. I have never had anything close to an intimate relationship, or anything I would consider a close relationship for that matter, and I think this stems from my inability to let people in to get to know the real me, including my family (due to fear of rejection maybe?). That's about the quick and short of my life, and the purpose of this journal is to help me better understand myself by being able to reflect on how I felt in the past, feel in the present, and desire in the future.

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